If I give you my heart, would you just play the part
December 7, 2009
As have ended since 30nov, and it has only been 7 days, but I feel as though it has ended long ago! Haha, and to think back, As was such a whole new experience. O levels seem like nothing, compared to A levels. Omg, and I can’t believe that I completed it. The two years in VJ just zoomed past. It seemed only yesterday that I took my first bus ride to school, and I felt that it was so tiring going to school, going through orientation and making new friends, getting used to my new class, integrating into a new band, (not) listening to lectures, sleeping in tutorials, going to NY, Majestia at esplanade, NSSN, (class)cheerleading for sports day, etc. Not forgetting those days where breaks were spent at parkway, treehouse, canteen, and going late for lessons. Haha. Year 2 just flew by, with even more events: being an ogl, concerts, SYF, more lectures and tutorials that we sleep in and not listen, less breaks but earlier dismissal times, Band D&D, Prelims, A levels, and so many more but I can’t remember now. The two years in JC is over already, and I’ve graduated. Seniors always tell me how they miss studying and JC life, and I used to think that they are crazy. HAHA. But to think about it now, I think I will miss vj. Amidst all the bad and the stress, the school’s such a lovely place to be in, the crazy cheering, the awesome classmates (though the lagging is really not enjoyable! HA) and the great experiences.
And one important reason why I love vj, I met a special someone (: I can’t imagine how I’d survive year 2, or rather any day actually, without you baby. I love you <3
Ok enough reflecting, I can go on and on and on so I shant. Anyway, post exams days have been awesome with a capital AAAAA (: I cooked, I shopped, I guitar hero-ed, I pigged out, I gossip girl-ed, I tv-ed, I route marshal-ed for a marathon! Yes I did ok, I stood from 5 to 9 in the morning and cheered people on and I got a variety of responses. Some people were actually nice and said thank you or clapped, and I was so happy. But some were just so mean and they laughed/made fun, I just stopped and wanted to cry. Haha ok no kidding, I just stopped cheering ): I made friends, who made it all bearable, thank god. Oh before that, Nicole and I caught New moon and it ended at 1230am so we thought we could rush for the last train, but we missed it. So we ran across the road for nothing, and we got stares from people. Haha, but it was fun. Bolted at the end and didnt get my 20dollars cause I was too tired and they wanted us to walk to padang. Totally turned and walked to the mrt instead. Oh well.
Happy 11th baby, you’re my nobody :p
Don’t you take chances, you might feel the pain
November 6, 2009
1. It’s 4 days to the start of As.
2. I’m not ready I’m not ready I’m not ready I’m freaking not ready.
3. I haven’t stepped out of my house since monday.
4. Wake up study watch tv eat watch tv study watch tv eat study watch tv watch tv watch tv sleep. Repeat.
5. Wtf is wrong with me why am I watching so much tv, and crying over almost every serial why is every show so heartbreaking.
6. I can’t do stats at all, yay me.
7. Why couldn’t you just care for a little while now, it won’t kill your grades
8. I realised why I’m not motivated
9. I won’t cry
10. It’s 24 days to the end.
Keep going?
October 23, 2009
Someone tell me, I’ve been studying everyday, why is it that I feel like as though I’m back at square one with nothing going into my head? Someone tell me why is it that I lack the focus every single time I sit at the table? Someone tell me why the hell am I even bothering.
Somehow, I think that I’m going to screw the big A, cause I’m feeling more and more unprepared. Ironic huh, ain’t people suppose to feel more prepared each time they hit the books? I can’t believe it, it’s only 18 more days, and I feel like I need another year to study. Actually? I don’t want to study at all. I’m so unproductive every single day it’s as though I’m not doing any work at all. I’m better off sleeping my life away than getting these hideous eyebags.
I just need the motivation again. Fucking bad.
Fly away with me
October 5, 2009
Life sucks. I can’t do complex numbers. Head hurts. Lost focus. I want to watch tv, I have this urge to watch romantic dramas. I feel like sitting on a plane. And flying away. UGH LIFE SUCKS.
Today is a bad day.
Protected: Because I’m scared to try
October 2, 2009
Looking in your eyes
September 26, 2009
Prelims are over, omfg thank heavens. It was so liberating to walk out of the hall knowing I wont step in again..until As that is. BUT. For now, I’m so happy prelims are over, and even though I screwed up, it’s over it’s over yay. Studied at the airport with the class girls (most) for physics mcq (omg can you imagine, 2 freaking hours) It was pretty productive but really really taxing. By the time we headed back to school my brain was pretty much fried. So whatever whatever, after phy paper ended, some people actually screamed? HAHA. Anywayyy, went to the Cathay with the class, and tried to get Gamer tickets, but the lady at the counter wanted all of our Ez links, and so we couldn’t fake cause some were still 17, gahhhh. Ended up watching Fame, which wasn’t good (to me) the dancing and singing was fabulous though.
I went to town today! Like finally omfg, missed the short train rides seriously. Went to Ion with wj, and I freaking love the place, it has every single shop. I want to go again, I didn’t even buy much, I need my mummy he was so tired after a while ): I think guys just can’t shop :p Anyway, had a nice dinner at the jap restaurant at the Cathay (there, again) and then we went home. Gna see him again tmr, heehee.
I hope wed never comes I dont want this to endddddd ):
You make me feel
September 19, 2009
1. My days will be math chem phy math chem phy math chem phy repeat (x 10^23) until friday comes ( I hope :/ )
2. I totally screwed all my papers so far, and I’m screwing the rest by not studying now, damn it I hate the mac.
3. Coffee’s my favourite drink now
4. My apettite is huge recently, it’s scary :O Must be making up for the loss of poor brain cells
5. I miss spending time doing something else but staying home and staring at white sheets and zoning out, I want to go out with you ):
6. I suddenly miss the old times, when I still mattered to you
7. Sometimes I hate myself for not doing as much as I wish I could at a time like this
8. I’m tired.
9. I have regrets, frustrations, unwanted emotions, anger, weight issues, heartaches, have you?
10. I wake up each day wishing it was sunday
Straight through my heart
September 18, 2009
Hate prelims much? Omfg.
I wish it was end of prelims alr I have megaaaaaa plans heehee (ok not really) I want to watch a lot of movies and I want to watch VMA tmr ugh ugh ugh stupid mtv why cant they show it another day ):
Oh, the other night, I dreamt that my gc was my handphone and I carried it around to text. Ha ha ha, super duper lame.
I want this dec to come, realllllyyyyyyyyy sooon.
I must love studying, studying is my favourite pasttime, notes are my best friends, I live for exams, I love studying I love studying I love studying.
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I wish that you had more time for me
Tell me, again
August 21, 2009
1. I haven’t ponned a single day this week, I deserve a pat on the back.
2. I’ve been playing Who has the biggest brain? everyday and I’ve upgraded from a scholar to a genius to a cyborg to an alien to squidlian to a BITBOT! I’m a machine, hello how cool is that.
3. There’s a new wanton mee stall in school and I’ve yet to try it, I heard it’s really really good!
4. People piss me off too easily these days.
5. I did two surveys this week, and both times they asked if I liked going to school, I said no. I really don’t. I haven’t hated school since a long time ago.
6. They were giving out free cheese today, in school. Tell me, the point is..?
7. I miss you even though I see you everyday
8. Retainers are actually far more uncomfortable than braces, oh hell.
9. It rained so freaking heavily today, I could have jumped into puddles if I didnt have my backpack with me
10. I have a pretty bright red clock on my table, it’s typical kind of clock with the alarm thingy on top. I’m loving those kind of clocks (:
11. I’ve been hooked on to E! entertainment, MTV, and hk drama channels OMFG, great timingggggg.
12. Prelims are in…THEY ARE COMING SOON.
13. I feel very very fat and it doesn’t help it that I’m eating so much junk. Need to run and lose weight. not happening.
14. I need a starbucks at home, so I get a constant intake of caffaine to keep awake.
15. I really hate school. And people, sometimes.
16. Oh, BDD was such a blast. It was so so cool and fun and sad and funny and much camwhoring. Photos flood fb, heehee times I love fb. But my album screwed up. UGH.
17. I got 100% attendance for band this year again! HAHA so amazing, and I thought I ponned :pI got a cup that said: I AM A J2 WITH NO LIFE AND A PASSION FOR BAND for invest, hee so cute.
18. Been eating too much shaker fries since macs decided to have it again! Not a good thing.
19. I have a urge to make strawberry ice cream and eat it with chocolate sauce and mnms.
20. I’ve been an evil evil girl who bitched far too much for her own good. I will cut down, I swear.
21. Tuition work is killing me. And trees.
22. My mummy threatened me with a huge bug today and said, ‘quick say I love you mummy! If not I throw this bug at you.’ My mummy is sooooo childish.
23. I’m going to change my specs soon cause horrible eyesight is going
24. I want to mug non-stop, like how people claim not to do. But I really want to.
25. I still want to watch Up and so many other movies ):
26. I live for sundays
27. I miss all my friends (hello clique we need to meet up)
28. If time would stop right now, I’d be too happy. (with you)
29. I miss that blue pinafore and white blouse, and morning runs and hymns and prayers
30. I wish I didn’t just typed all that down cause I wasted 20minutes of my precious time I could have napped
